Good morning, everyone! I hope you are having a wonderful holiday season and enjoying yourselves! I just wanted to stop through and share a quick thought that has been weighing on me a little bit lately.
The hardest part for me about getting back to the gym is seeing how much strength I have lost in the down time. I go to throw up some weight that I used to warm up with, and I can barely get under it. Mentally that is the hardest thing to overcome, and today I really had to grit my teeth and remind myself where I started before, and what I went through to make it to where I was at my peak.
I walked into the gym this morning and started my cardio. I despise running and anything cardio related, so I take that as an indication that I should probably do it more often. Anyways, after I finished I walked over to the free weights and started working shoulders. I noticed next to me was a girl shoulder pressing a weight that I really hadn’t tried in a while. It used to be a “warm up” weight for me so I thought (foolishly), “She’s significantly smaller than me (I know, it was an asshole thought) and I can easily do that.” So I grabbed the dumbbells, pushed them to my shoulders and repped out… nothing. Yep. ZERO REPS. I snorted, quickly put the weights back in their rightful place, and grabbed a lighter pair. Did I want to crawl in a hole and die? Most definitely. Did I want to go to the bathroom and cry, because I was quickly reminded of what I am no longer able to do? No doubt. But I didn’t. I complimented her on her awesome body (She was long and lean but very strong), put my headphones back in, and sucked it the eff up.
Theodore Roosevelt said, “Comparison is the thief of joy,” and damn was he spot on.
I just wanted to remind everyone that sometimes you have to take a step back, and be realistic with yourself. It’s something you have to be conscious of every single time you walk into a gym. That girl’s journey is not my journey. Her goals are not my goals. Her future is not my future. And her body is NOT my body. To compare myself to her would not be fair to me or to her. She’s obviously worked hard to get where she is. Instead of trying to skip those steps and jump right back in where I left off, I have to earn that spot. I’ve done it before, I’ll do it again and better.
Happy Holidays everyone!